Monday, July 18, 2016

Amazing Grace

Dear Son,

Today would have been your 45th birthday and it is the second one that I have spent without your earthly presence. The world still spins and I still miss you.

The day you were born your father got kicked out of the delivery room because he wasn't being helpful. You had big shoulders, but you eventually arrived at 23 inches long and 8lbs 10 1/2 ounces. BIG. You were always so slender that I had to buy your pants special from Sears. They had some called "super slim". I would hang all your clothes on individual hangers that would hold the shirt, pants, and socks that would go together to make it easier for you to get dressed. I never dreamed you would be over 6 feet until that day when you were 15 and I bought you a pair of size 12 tennis shoes.

We had many a rough time while you were growing up. You were smarter than I and you ran me ragged. I wasn't alone in that because you were smarter than most of your teachers and others around us. I was happy the day you graduated because I felt like I had made it along with you to the age where you could become responsible for you and there wasn't a draft. I felt you were safe from participating in any wars. You still were taken way to early, but not through that sacrifice.

It is hard when you are staring down at a sweet babies face to know what they will be like in adulthood. After all the trouble you had been in at school for talking, making others laugh and a few other naughty things, who would dream that you would become such a good person so loved by others.

You have done many sweet and thoughtful things for so many people but I am most grateful for the ones you did for me. I especially love the way you loved Dan Tucker and took good care of him. I hope you two have been able to meet up and have fun. I know there are shenanigans within you both waiting to burst out.

Someone has posted a saying on Facebook about heaven having phones. You are global mobile so I wish you would work on the network and get that going because I would love to chat with you as we used to. I know many other people that would like that earth to heaven connection also.

I really love that no matter what was going on in your life, good or challenging, you could always say "God bless" to someone.

I am blessed to be the mother of two loving, intelligent, caring, giving human beings that love God. You and Darcy are both kind and thoughtful. I received an amazing grace in being allowed to be your mom

Obviously no one knows where the next moment will take them, but I am praying for something on the marvelous side for Atlas. Send some good blessings to his mom as well.

Thank you for all the white feathers. I would be happy to bake your favorite birthday dessert if you could drop by for a tad. Bob made his first very own blackberry pie and I am certain he would be happy to share a slice with you.

I was listening to the 2 Cellos station on Pandora today. They played the piece of music called "Hallelujah". I love it. May grace, peace and joy abide in all hearts today. I love and miss you. God Bless. love, mom

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